Hi you guys!! Hope your holidays were amazing! As I was scrolling through Instagram this morning almost every post had a Monday I Hate You vibe. I feel like the first Monday of the new year is particularly ugh worthy. But It is such a fantastic feeling, to just start again. Ya know?
Looking back on 2015 I think it’s safe to say, was a mixed bag. Some really amazing things happened (hello baby!!) but it was also a year of…personal growth, which is the positive way to say it had some really sucky moments. People surprise you, and not always in a good way. But after taking some time to work through it all I’m happy to report that I’m a better person for having had the experience. And while I’ve always known how wonderful my husband is, our relationship is next level amazing. When everything fell apart he was there and man I love that guy.
I feel like in terms of the blog, 2015 was a solid year, maybe not one for the record books, but definitely one that I needed to have. I think that there is definite room for improvement in 2016. Specifically in 2 areas. 1. Posting more consistently. The last half of this year posting was sporadic at best. So I will be working on that quite a bit. If you haven’t noticed consistency isn’t one of my strong suits ;). The second thing is a little more abstract. Its the spirit of the whole thing. Forgive me for showing my weaknesses, but in 2016 I am bringing back the love. It is extremely easy to get wrapped up in yourself when you do something like this for a living. Its all about your ideas, your projects, the way people respond to you, how many likes you get on an instagram picture etc. it can become really self-centered. I’m not typically a self-centered person (hello co-dependency) but this last year I found myself stopping and looking around and thinking “Wow. You need a reality check.” Do you guys ever feel like that? When I started the blog I was in such a different place in life. Everything around me was in shambles. Having a creative outlet saved me, it was how I could breathe. My heart was in everything that I did and every word I wrote. I don’t know if I can say that I consistently felt that way this last year. Of course there were moments, but there were definitely moments that it wasn’t and that’s not really fair to any of us. It feels like in this crazy competitive creative space that unless you have something that is BRAND NEW NEVER BEEN DONE AND AMAAAAAAZING! that its just not good enough to talk about. So that is what I want to go back to. The reckless abandon of just putting it out there because its what I want to talk about, not because I hope it will get shared on FB a zillion times, but because I’m passionate about it.
I feel like in this online world it is so easy for things to be surface and contrived. Perfectly staged pictures, perfectly clean houses, perfect everything. It reminds me of the turkey dinner on the movie Christmas Vacation. It looks absolutely perfect, until Clark cuts into it. Then it deflates into a puff of burnt turkey smoke. I don’t want that. I want something that is real and actually does more than makes you hungry for a life that looks great from the outside but is empty and hollow inside. Ya know?
So what does that mean for 2016? Well, the first thing on our to-do list is to get this baby here! Fingers crossed that he agrees this week is the week.
One of our biggest goals as a family this year is to build a new house. It absolutely terrifies and excites me to put that out there. Its going to be a totally new experience that I’m sure will be full of lots of trial and error but that’s what life is all about right?
Which means, getting this house ready to sell on a crazy budget. The kitchen and bathrooms are at the top of the priority list. Along with pulling everything together so that it’s cohesive and still fantastic. Its going to be GREAT!!
If you would have told me when I started all of this stuff that I would be where I am today I would have told you to get off the telephone wire and to find a fire extinguisher because your pants are on fire. I am grateful beyond belief for you and the influence that you have on my life!